Let Me Present You , The Story Of My Life .

This song called " Losing It " , sang by Christopher Drew Ingle from the band , NeverShoutNever ! Its been a long time that i dint listen to this song , i lovee this song so much . The lyrics is exactly what happen to me now , listen to it , and you'll understand . :) BTW , Love you chris ! <3

Fucking Useless

hmm . its hard to say this . but . yeah . i like THEM BOTH . Its just that ! when i break up with them , so suddenly they started to pay attention to me ! WTF ? yeah , im talking about you and her . wakaka . i still dont have the guts to say their name here . i mean type . argggh . im so frustrated ! but . . i really dont wanna lose sela . fuck it . i already says her name . gosh ! i've been cursing a lot today . its not good for my health . LMAO .i dont know . i just dont wanna regret anything that i do . its like these quotes .

i dont know whats right and whats wrong anymore . all i have to do now is , keep it all to myself . it hurts ! argggh . i dont know why im acting like this . im soo childish . mother F ! im sooo fucked up .  TT^TT . but a long time ago . both of them kinda ignores me . should i do the same to them now ? maybe i should , maybe i shouldn't . but im not that mean to do that . not ilke them, wahaha . im a good person . seh ! wakaka . actually . its been a hard time for me . everyone kinda like , always look for me . its not fun ! i only want one person ! hmm . right now , i dont want anyone anymore . its better that i keep on learning how to strum a guitar than worrying about someones feelings , although , they never cared about mine . fucking annoying ! geesh .. from right now on , i will be enjoying my life and all im gonna cared about is my friends , my family and my guitar . i mean , my brother's guitar . hmmp.

Ini akan terjadi apabila saiya punya mood emo2 ckit ..

pagi2 sua sy emo2 ne . wakakaka !

The Hair I wanted So Bad ..

OMG ! I love this hair so much .

Even though i dont really like bright colours ,

but this hair has totally stole my heart ! Awwwwwe,

I think i have to wait another year to get this hair , well , 

I have to say goodbye to my black hair for another year ,

Arrrgghhh, kinda sad .

Fucked up .

I know something is wrong , i had a hunch about it .
Well , whats gonna happen next , just let it happen .
But i admit it , i am sooo fucked up , and because of it ,
im in a really really bad mood . I swear , i could punch an innocent person
when im in a bad mood . This is just irritating , fucking annoying . This is crap !
Argggh ! I've never been so pissed like this ever before !

Susah !

Saiya buat ini , salah , saiya buat itu , salah .
Adui ! Apa la kunun yg betul ne ?
Sengsara saiya taw .
Adui ~ Saiya syg c sela ! Nah .. Tekeluar sda .
Eeeh , nda lama saiya c butak la kepala ne .
Susah tul bepikir . Paling2 pun saiya tulis sni d blog jak .
Mcm palui saiya rsa , tpi ..
Pa leh wt .
ahahah . Yeeehaaa ! itu jak larr .

Stomach ache !

Shits ! Arrggh , its been so long that i have this stomach ache , but i dint tell anyone , i've lost my appetite , im feeling like vomiting right after i eat ! This is so critical , maybe i should see the doctor , but i am lazy enough to do that . Ugh , hope i'll get better soon .

Insomniac .

Sleep , sleep , sleep , sleep . All i think about now is SLEEPING !

I am sooooo TIRED ! Ugh , but still , i cant sleep ! I hope i did not turn out to be INSOMNIAC . Its kinda creepy . 

This is TOKIO HOTEL . Gosh ! Some of you might not know this band , but i love them so much ! Tokio Hotel is a german band that has been famous from 2001 after the vocalist , BILL KAULITZ  join a reality show Star Search .

 This is the vocalist , BILL KAULITZ . He is 21 years old this 2011 , and he has a twin Brother named Tom . He's So cute !

This is TOM KAULITZ , the Guitarist , and also bill's twin brother . He is just 10 minutes older than bill .



I LOVE TOKIO HOTEL SO MUCH !

Gila suda .

Hahahaha ! Lucu !

Crazzy Time !

Practice menyanyi !

Fun Time !

Ahahaha ! Ini c mila ma c nana begila !

Piece Of Me .

No one knows how i feel , no one here that i'd like to see , the day was dark and full of pain . I write 'help' , with my own blood , cause hope is all i've got , i open up my eyes , but nothings changed . My life is meaningless , my diary full of trash , its so hard to get along , with empty hands . Im looking for the rainbow , but it died not long ago . The world makes me confused , the storm doesn't want to diffuse , it seems like i lost all my senses away . And i just don't know what to do .

Rindu !

Aduy ~ Rindu saiya sama urg ne tau .. Nda pla saiya tau dia ne jenis yg manja2 ne . ahahaha ! 

Napa la dulu dia nda ctau yg dia suka sama saiya arr ?

Lau nda , awal2 sua ne saiya bwa cple . 

Hahaha !

Aduy ~ Nda sua saiya dpt menahan rindu

ne . Asal bek0l sama dia , mesti saiya betmbh rindu ou !

Haisshhh ! susanya lau tinggal jau2 ne , lau dkat , hari2 sua saiya p jmpa ne . rndunya ~ 

My Friends !

 Ini c yaya sama c mila ! C mila yg pakai baju itam ,
C yaya yg pakai rmbut palsu . haha !

 Ini saiya sama c yaya !

 C yaya ! Kiut kn ??

 Mila ! ahahah ! len lgi muka ,.

 Ini saiya sama syg saiya c mila !

 Ini c athunk mkn soto ! ahahah !

 Ini saiya sama c erika !

Ini c mila kena kubur ! ahahaha !

 Ni c mila jadi pundan !

Erika ma nana !
















Ni c bb ! ahahhah !

Ini Time Kami d PJ ( Puterjaya )

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             Ini c mila sama c nana ! Ahahahaha ! Durang gila sua ne time ne . Lucu ou muka c mila ! Ahahahahahaha ! Balik2 saiya ketawa bila tguk ne pic ! Hahahaha ! Rndu saiya sama dia !

Adui ! Rindu saiya mw p pj ou ! Best tul ! Ahaks !

The Best Day Ever !

All our memories ! I love this moment !  <3 <3

Best Day Ever !

Ini saiya sama kawan saiya c mila ! Dia ne budu2 , palui2 , gila2 , lucu2 , tpi kiut sma baik !

hahaha ! asal kmi jln2 kn , mesti saiya hepy ! Bab dia ne kn , kuat bikin urg ketawa .

Best kwn sma dia !

Ne pic time kmi p tnjung aru , Best la begmbr2 bha . 

Hahaha !

Adui ..

mati la begini ! kenapa mesti betambah masalh saiya ne ? saiya ne bisexual , saiya mengaku la , saiya buli tersuka sama laki ataupun pengkid , mna2 jak .. tpi susah ba saiya ne mw ska sama lelaki , okey ? mamy saiya selalu ckp , " jgn pegi dekat2 sama lelaki , bahaya tu , nti kw kena rogol,"  itu yg saiya takut , pastu lama2 saiya nda suka sama lelaki , nda menarik minat saiya .jadi lau ada lelaki suka sama saiya , saiya memang akan ckp nemau , sebab nya , saiya mang nda suka , saiya suda jadi begini , jadi jgn kasi salah saiya nanti , sorry lar arr kepada smua lelaki yg suka sama saiya tu , saiya nda buli wt apa2 jua . kalau jadi kwn jak , memang saiya suka . Tapi kalau becinta2 ne , saiya nda dpt trima .

Hmmph !

Nasib saiya syg kw ,nda saiya mrajuk lama2 .

Nawhhh

You say that I'm messing with your head,all cause I was making out with your friend,love hurts whether it's right or wrong,I can't stop cause I'm having too much fun,you're on your knees,begging please,stay with me,but honestly,I just need to be a little crazy,all my life I've been good,but now,I'm thinking what the hell,all I want is to mess around,and I don't really care about,if you love me,if you hate me,you can save me.So what if I go out on a million dates,you never call or listen to me anyway,I'd rather rage than sit around and wait all day,don't get me wrong,I just need some time to play.

Hmm .

Saiya ne susa dipujuk , lain kali jgn kasi saiya merajuk .

I chose to be lonely .

Seriously .

You left me bleeding,but I couldn't give in,I swallowed all the poison to get infected,give back my heart that you body rejected,I'll never let you go ,I hate that I need you so.

Come from my heart .

I hate my life,I can't sit still,for one more single day,
I've been here waiting,for something to live and die for,let's run and hide.
Out of touch,out of time,just get lost without a sign,as long as you stay by my side,.You see my soul,I'm a nightmare,out of control I'm crashin'into the dark,Into the room,into the world,of our cocoon.You are the sun and I am the moon.Dont let go,don't you know,in your shadow I can shine ?

Cerita Cinta Mcm taek ! wakaka

Cuba kamu pikir bah , lau kamu d tmpat saiya kan , kusut pikiran , tlampau baik , nda dpt buat keputusan , nda dpt memilih , blik2 memujuk org biarpun nda sala , blik2 say s0rie biarpun bukan saiya yg sala , pastu di mara2 lgi hari2 , kmu dpt tahan ka tu ? kmu buli cool jak ka tu ? kmu buli lek ja ka tu ? mang kmu memanas tu . saiya pun lama saiya ne menahan nda mau mrajuk , nda mw besedih2 sna , tpi kmu kn , kmu yg buat saiya gne bah , kmu tu kwn saiya , kw tu org yg saiya cinta ! jan wt saiya gne bah . saiya ne biarpun hepy2 jak slalu,budu2 , palui2 , pndai jua sakit hati , pndai jua mara , pndai jua mrajuk , pndai jua hancur ni aty saiya ne . paam2 la okey , saiya nda mw mara bha ne , nemau mrajuk , p kmu wt saiya gne , tekeluar la smua .. saiya syg bha sama kmu , ingat itu jak .

Bejiwang2 Skejap ..

I am not easy to cry , but you finally make me cry , its hurts a lot , and i cant stand it .

Im gonna make it ends now . Bye , i love you .

Hishhh !

Sakit hati saiyaaa ! saiya bukan budak2 lgi bah , 16 suda saiya ne , pndai juga saiya jaga diri sendiri . Mcm nda kena pecaya pula , saiya tau la saiya pernah menipu , tapi skrg saiya suda berubah , kmu wt saiya gne , larang saiya jln , saiya paam jua bah , tapi saiya rasa nda adil , saiya suda 16 , adik saiya bru  13 , dia lagi buli pegi jln jau2 sama kwn2 dia , tdur ruma kwn dia , saiya di ruma jak . mana adil tu . suda la saiya bnyk masalah yg kamu nda tau , gne lagi kmu buat saiya . saiya pndai juga jaga diri , nda juga saiya takut tu pilak sana . Tapi biar la , nda buli pun nda buli la . tahan jak sakit hati .

Malas !

Malas sua saiya begini bah , ya , saiya diam2 jak sudah ne . Itu yg kamu mw kan .
Ngam larr .

Whatever ! Nevermind !

Whatever , i love you , i like you , i miss you .
Nevermind , i can stand this .
People will never understands me , anything may happen ,
whether i'll regret it or not , i am giving up  .

Honestly .

Ya lha , mara jak la , kasi sala jak saiya smua , tu pilak bidak pun saiya punya salah juga tu , tu om gay , saiya punya salah juga tu , mara la saiya brabis arr .. Jan jak heran lau sms nda dbls , k0l nda diangkat , saiya punya salah juga tu .

Damn It !

I thought that i will be extremely happy today , but its all changed . ugh , i hate problems , i don't want to get into trouble , but finally , i got into both . I hate this , i am so stressed out , bad mood , and emotional . This is the only place that i can expressed my feelings , even though no one can see this , but i feel a little bit relieved . If only i can sleep for the whole of my life , that would be better , sleeping makes me happy . Lol . I don't know how to solve this problem and how to get out of this trouble . Im so fucked up .